I injected myself with a virus that is incurable. For almost 3 days
I’ve been suffering from what I call sleepless nights. A disease that keeps
coming back and a system that welcomes it. It’s so ironic to think
and understand the situation but this is how life works for me. I’m
imagining things, which are far from reality. I guess thinking about him is
really heaven for me and a lifetime with him is a bed of roses. But, I
wasn’t thinking of him. It’s just in the system. It’s hard to let go of
what is in inside of you. Not just keeping him well but loving him for eternity.
There are words I guess to say or actions to make just to let him know the
Feeling I have for him. Sometimes there are things in life that we have to keep
within ourselves. Such love that is too intimate and special. Though, I’ll
never have him. Either way, it’s the love that keeps me loving, thoughts
that make me happy and sleepless nights that satisfy my soul. Agonizing
in pain, I still hoped and waited for his love. Though I felt betrayed, I
keep on loving. I’m suffering yet fulfilled. I feel alone but satisfied. I
had him, in time. Now, a lifetime at the agony in the garden
Friends Forever!
Written with a pen
Sealed with a kiss
If you are my friend,
Please answer this:
Are we friends or are we not?
You told me once, but I forgot.
So tell me now and tell me true
Of all the friends I've ever met,
You're the ones I won't forget.
And if I die before you do,
I'll go to Heaven
And wait for you.
